Motivation and Desire

Help me, Help me.   I am so struggling right now.  Once again I have pulled out my Weight Watchers three month tracker - once again I have looked at all the pages of each week I have not tracked and started a new week with today .  A Tuesday no less.  Since I am a Lifetime Member, I have not weighed yet in Februray and I don't want to - because HOW COULD I DO THIS AGAIN.  How could I get at least 5 pounds over my healthy weight.  How could I be going back to all these old freaking habits.  Can you year what I am saying here.  Can you see my level of frustration, but even more my extreme disappointment in myself. 

WHY WHY WHY could I so easily lose my 50 pounds by tracking and moving more.  Why am I having such a hard time staying on track.  I have all the cookbooks, I have all the tools, I know this program.  My goodness until last November I was a leader - a motivator - and now I am drowning. 

What is with this behavior?  Why am I sabotaging myself.  Why are my pants tight around the middle again and my favorite pair of jeans a struggle to zip.

Do you know the answers, I have to find them somewhere. 

So today I am tracking all my feelings again - every fight I have with food, every time I eat something I really don't want to.  Which means to you all - there just may be a lot of posts to this blog every day, which means I am writing in a smaller font.

Feel free to comment with any suggestions or struggles.  Thanks so much.

And so I am quoting out of the page in my 3 month Weight Watchers trackr - Did you know?  Those who achieve their goals simply refuse to quit. 

Why don't I want to achieve my goal of MAINTAINING my healthy weight?  Why do I constantly be in this roller coaster state, up and down - what am I thinking

Tracking - Weight Watchers

Okay, so this is not to influence anyone to join Weight Watchers, but since I had great success losing my weight through Weight Watchers I feel connected to this program.  It was easy for me to follow, and to lose weight and to never, ever feel as if I couldn't have what I wanted to eat.  Sometimes it was as simple as just eating less of it.

BUT anyway - that is not the reason for this post.  Tracking - even if you do not do Weight Watchers, it doesn't matter what plan you are on, if you want to lose, you have to burn more than you eat.  It is a very simple concept - and the only way I know how much I eat, is by tracking, because then it is there in black and white, and I can't pretend I didn't eat something  or fake it when I get on the scale and wonder why I am not losing.

But that is still not the point, the point is in my tracker they have little bits of advice each day, and todays tip was
'Did you Know? - Get your rest.  Not getting enough sleep has various negative effects on health and has been linked to weight gain and obesity."  How many of us get enough rest?  How much is enough?  I heard between 7 and 9.....  Think about that  Please Please Please if you quote me on this make sure you give the props to Weight Watchers - it is their quote... Thanks all